Can I just say, hallelujah! Koach and I are testing and easing me into using my knee again. I was able to join in the WOD with everyone on Friday and today. Over the weekend, my knee felt okay, not worst, which is a good sign post WOD. I’m excited we’re making progressions to get me back into it all, but I feel…inadequate. Perhaps that’s the wrong word. Impatient? Antsy? Frustrating? Yes, those work better.
I feel like a team player again, as opposed to my Lonely WOD’s which can be depressing because I don’t get to play with everyone. But I feel held back and that frustrates me. And I know Koach can see it, which is why he reminds me why we’re taking it slow. Needless to say, I’ve been reminded of my failure at Open Games WOD 12.3. I was toying with the idea of doing the last Open Games WOD, Koach sensed that, and he rightfully advised against it. Had he not said anything, I might have gone for it. Getting right back into RX-ing WOD’s has not gone well for me, so this is a a safer approach. I get that. Doesn’t mean I like it.
Today, for example, strength skill were back squats, I was told to use a hard target (small box) so that I ensure that I’m using just booty to bring myself up rather than quads and knees. I haven’t had to use a target since my early days of CrossFit. The WOD included OH squats, and I again had to use a hard target. There were also burpees in the WOD. I almost have to retrain my brain to make sure that I am landing on my heels when coming back in, rather than my toes – which is what is hard on my knees.
I have to constantly remind myself that this is the road to recovery that I have to take and not get mad at the fact that I can’t chase those I usually chase or try to beat everyone’s time…just yet. Koach even said to me, “Today’s not the day you try to beat everyone’s time,” but rather that I need to focus on my movements.
The competitor in me has trouble with this. But getting my knee all better trumps the urge. I will follow Koach’s orders.